Diet & Calories Part 1

For as long as I could recall, I've been struggling with my weight all this while.

When I was in primary school, I was among the tallest girl in class.

We often had weigh in sessions during PE as a measure of our growth but that damned weighing in session had scarred me for life.

You see, being tall you weigh more than the normal kids. But unfortunately, other kids did not seem to think that.

So after being teased for my weight at about 12 years old, I have started my unsuccessful journey to lose weight.

I've tried yoyo diet, skipping meal, skipping rice, vegetarian, liquid diet etc; you name it, most probably I have already done it. Eventually, I gave up.

The fattest I've got was 75 kg. And that was a huge slap to my face.

I tried to find a photo when I weighed that much but unfortunately I can't find any. Probably I was too ashamed to take photos of myself then.

It was 4 years ago & since then I've lost 4 kgs got plateaued till now. I've always console myself saying that at least I'm maintaining at this weigh.

And then I went through an emotional struggle that lasted for about a year where at that point I did not give a damn on myself anymore.

But now after a change of environment I got better & started to worry for myself. In a few months time I will be hitting 1/4 of a century. That's when our body's metabolism slows down & it will get harder to lose weight.

A few months ago I started to go for a hike once every fortnight but besides improving my stamina, nothing happened to my body. I even climbed the highest mountain on South East Asia And came back without losing a single pound!

Anyway, as time passes I got more frustrated with myself. Until 1 day I accidentally came across this blog about a woman's journey to lose weight.

So I decided to take on her advice.


- To Be Continued-

To You

You.

If you don't know what you have done to deserve this, I kindly ask u to reflect on yourself & observe quietly what you may have done wrong.

Was it because you bragged too much? Yes.

Was it because you were found out to be a fraud? Yes.

Was it because of your size? Sadly, yes.

Was it because you always stepped into people's privacy space? Yes.

Was it because your laugh is annoying? Yes.

Was it because of your laziness? Yes.

What could you have done?

In your remaining days, I would suggest modesty, humility & be hardworking. It's okay to be fat but it really annoys people when fat + laziness comes in the same package. That is if you want anyone to ever talk to you again.

Tried defending you but in the end if you don't change, there's nothing much I can do.

HELLO!

It's been a wild ride ever since my last post. Here's what'd happened.

I.. had my farewell with my housemates & neighbours of 2 years.

I.. moved out from my Butterworth house.

I.. passed my final final exams.

I.. had my very first convocation!

I.. am finally a doctor =)

I.. did nothing for few weeks.

I.. became KK's tour guide for the very 1st time muahahhaha ( check out my reviews =) http://viv-acious.blogdrive.com/archive/cm-05_cy-2011_m-05_d-23_y-2011_o-0.html )

I.. HAD CLIMBED MT KINABALU!!!!! COUCH POTATO CONQUERED THE WORLD!!! WAHAHAH

I.. registered myself as a dentist! (and I kinda screwed up a lil)

I.. lost my dearest grandfather on my mum's birthday T_____________T

I.. went to Singapore for few days after my grandfather's funeral.




I.. am going to Thailand soon..

I can't believe after so long I still feel the same way about you.

I hate you.

Hello Life!

Hey peeps! How are you doing?

MY THEORY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! (rolling on my bed)

Now we have 1 week break & then our practicals exam!

Hopefully we can passed this I don't think anyone here can handle exams anymore!

I rewarded myself 2 days worth of unlimited online hours & tomorrow i have to get back to work again!

I'm extremely terrified & always ended up doing badly in oral exams so I'll try to work on that this week.

Anyway, just a friendly reminder, 26 MARCH 2011 IS EARTH DAY SO DON'T FORGET TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT!

This year I decided to go an extra mile & become a vegetarian for 2 weeks! I know, it doesn't help much but still, IT'S A START!

Animal agriculture produces methane which gives rise to greenhouse effect which is how vegetarian plays a part in earth day.

So what do you think? Will you join me?

Maybe its hard for you to understand.

But not everyone is living their life as easy as you think.

Its been a hard year.

Day after day i doubt my presence.

Maybe you don't understand what I'm going through.

Cutting off connections seems to be the easiest thing to do.

I'm really tired. I'm really tired of hanging on.

Hanging on the to the loose sands.

Things are just so vulnerable.

So easy to break.

I was translating this song to someone & I felt the lyrics are really beautiful.

It's a song by SHE called Love came by.

My english sucks by the way..

A lot of those meaningful sentences got lost in translation..







Love Came By

I can't move on, I can't let go, becoz i've seen love blossom in my eyes

I wanna wait, keep waiting, until the memory of that night comes back

When you hugged me, that moment I felt like I was flying in the air

And when i slowly landed, I was no longer myself, I have a dream, & I was in it

Love came by, it was so beautiful, so fierce, it was cheering, it stone-heartedly ran over my life

Even regrets, I shamelessly treasured them with a smile

Love came by, I was complete, I was happy, How could I simply let it go?

I do not want to be freed, I'm only afraid that I would missed it, I just wanna wait for you to come back & love me

Loneliness is yelling out, but i'm not afraid, Because I could only hear how much i missed you

The world is so big, it will be able to contain my little silly but stubborn faith

Did you made promises? I have already forgotten, but its no longer important

Because anyhow I would still wait, I would wait in my dream, my one & only beautiful dream

If i needed a miracle to call you back, then let my tears evaporate, let it turn into snowflakes

Let the snowflakes together with me melt in the embrace of love