Death

I had some new found heart disease. The doctor asked me if I would like to try out a new medicine that could relieve the symptoms in 99% of patients, but it's not proven safe yet and the side effects are still unknown. But I said yes anyway. After I took the medicine, I felt much better than before.
After a few days when I was brushing my teeth, suddenly I felt pain in my abdomen as if all my organs had burst. When I look at myself in the mirror, I saw my tongue rotting in front of my own eyes. And I died.

I get to see what happened after I died. But I can't remember it now. After a few days, I am alive again. When I saw my family again, the first thing I did was hugging my mum T.T

All of these is of course a dream. Despite of feeling myself die & crying like shit when I saw my mum, I didn't wake up until the next morning =.="

I did some research about dream interpretation:

Bleeding - To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you.

Death - Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.

On a negative note, to dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation.

When I thought I was over the fact that they hurt me badly, it turns out I'm not. Deep inside eventhough I don't see her as a 'friend' now, I still can't forget the pain they gave me. Is life meant to be worse as we grow older?